I’m not exactly sure how to write this post… if I go back to the very beginning of this blog, I only intended to write about books I read, a project here and there, and being a librarian. So much has happened since then–moving to San Francisco, quitting my job, my condition worsening and then the necessary surgeries, adjusting to my new life–and through this blog, it’s been impossible not to open up a bit and share what’s going on in my life.
So, although I still don’t want to talk much about my marriage or my daily emotions, I can’t avoid sharing the big things in life… and it’s impossible to ignore that on Tuesday, my last remaining grandparent, my grandmother, passed away. My librarian grandmother, who read countless picture books to me as a child, inspired my librarian career, and from whom I’ve inherited a love of reading.
It wasn’t entirely unexpected, although her decline occurred swiftly over the past couple months. I saw her one last time when I visited in November, and she was still smiling, still gracious, although she didn’t have the strength to sit up for very long or the endurance to take part in our conversation. But she just smiled away, happy to be in the presence of her four sons and their families, even if she could no longer participate. I’m so thankful that I had the chance to see her in good health one last time, before she left this earth. I know she loved me and she knew I loved her, and I’m glad my last memory of her is a good one.
Sam and I arrived in SF Tuesday, leaving MS at 2 AM to catch our 6 AM flight with the cats, which went smoothly but left us exhausted. Tomorrow is Sam’s 25th birthday, and my brother was supposed to come for a five-day visit… but all that has changed now. Instead, I’ll fly back to the South for the visitation and funeral, and Sam will stay home with the kitties.
I think I’ll take a bit of a blogging break, although I have tons to write about–our Mississippi Christmas (oh, how much fun! And oh, the homesickness afterwards!), travelling with the cats, the books I got for Christmas, and more, I’m sure–but it can wait. I need to be with my family, decide what to do next, and sit with Sam a bit.
Thank you for reading my little blog, and Cheers to 2012!