On February 28 of last year, our San Francisco apartment was packed up and we started the journey to Tennessee.
What I remember most about that day was the mix of anxiety and excitement swirling together. While we were waiting (and waiting) for the movers to arrive, I took one last walk around the neighborhood and tried to process everything. I tend to focus on the task at hand, and not so much the processing part… so I don’t even remember feeling particularly sad or excited, but mostly just anxious to get the show on the road.
A number of things threatened to make the whole day difficult…
- The construction by our apartment building blocked the street parking.
- The weather was rainy and gloomy.
- The moving company was running late and didn’t have the correct address to pick up a couch from storage.
- We didn’t have an exact destination for our stuff, since we didn’t have an apartment in TN yet.
- The construction work shut down due to the rain, leaving an empty street with plentiful parking.
- The sun came out.
- The moving truck arrived and found a parking space right in front of our building.
- Three weeks later, we had an address and we had our stuff.
Somehow, everything worked out the best possible way in the end. How’s that for a metaphor for life?
One year later, I’m so happy to be here. I like my job, our apartment, our new city. I feel like I plugged into the community a lot faster this time around, and I feel like we’re in a place with a lot of opportunities still to come,. A lot of that comes from living closer to family and friends again, which is the best part of our move.
Today I’m getting another routine colonoscopy. The prep is never fun, and there’s always anxiety centered around the question: Am I sick again? But I’m feeling the best I have in a long time, and 2014 was an entirely pain-free year which feels like a small miracle. I don’t really dwell on my chronic illness much these days, mostly because I have the luxury of feeling pretty “normal” with the exception of regular infusions. I guess this post is my way of reflecting on where I am in life right now… and I’m happy to be here!